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[14 Dec 2009|02:36am] |
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It's his fault I am still awake at this hour. The last episode ended with him in the trunk of a car so I had to watch another one.
I'm really getting into this show. If you're in the right mood there are a lot of great lines in it. "Oh, great, she's got issues. So she's not out of my league" (quoting one of the characters). I guess I should be looking for a guy with issues - oh wait, I already had one and I've let him go. Oh wait, his issues Were too big for me. Too big for anyone, probably. Oh well. So much for that.
I can't wait for my road trip to sun and warmth.
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[09 Dec 2009|09:51am] |
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Starting the day with a post just because I have things in my head I might forget by noon.
It's been a very eventful and emotional 3 days. For one thing, Empires have released a new single, Bang, and it's been like an internet party. Everyone getting excited, talking about it all over the place, counting down the hours and minutes together until we could get it. I felt like I was part of something. It was great. Oh, and the song is so good, I've listened to it about 20 times in the meantime. It should be a big hit. I wanna find out more about how we the fans can help promote it to radio stations and such.
In other news I found that Bill Beckett has a 2 year old girl. The irony is that it was also in a magazine article I've had for at least 2 months but haven't bothered reading. I am quite happy to know that there is a little girl out there carrying his genes, that is so totally cool. But it changes a bit how I see him. There is nothing like having a kid to make a boy suddenly look like a man. So far I've been keeping myself at a good distance from him at concerts because I was seeing him as this young, pretty, fragile thing I could hurt by just staring at for too long. I guess I don't see him as fragile anymore. I might stop and say hi if I happen to see him after a concert and he's not surrounded by adoring fans.
I guess you forget to pay attention for a couple of years and the boy becomes a man. You forget to pay attention to yourself for a few years and all of a sudden the happy go lucky party girl is now a professional whose major question is "how well did I do my job today?". Time flies, it's the nature of things. Life is what happens when you're busy doing other things (right, John?)
The last eventful thing - I've discovered a very unexpected fellow Wow player. Somebody interesting. If I can stop beating myself over everything that is wrong with me for a minute I might pursue trying to do a dungeon or two with him. It might be a lot of fun.
Ok, I'll end this on a note on Lady Gaga. I hate her name, I don't like her, I hate Poker Face, I dislike how much publicity there is around her. But I have to admit that it is not possible for a song like Bad Romance not to appeal to me. It easier to just accept it.
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[04 Dec 2009|11:37am] |
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I had a dream this morning just before I woke up. Someone had taken a fish out of a basin of water and they were going home with it to cook it, but the fish slipped out of their hand and it started to jump and wiggle its way around the room, in search of a water it could get back to. But of course it couldn't, because the rim of the basin was too high up and the fish was nowhere near it. But the fish had quite a lot of life left in it, and it kept struggling, even though it was clear to everyone but it how things would turn out in the end. We were all chasing after it and I asked with sadness, "can't we just kill it?" That's when I woke up.
And then I realized that sometimes this is exactly what love feels like. There is no way for it to accomplish anything, or what it was based on is already over and done and boxed and sealed, but some part of it is still full of life and it struggles not to give up. And I wish I could just give it a blow to the head and silence it, whenever that happens.
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[02 Dec 2009|02:02pm] |
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I have declared myself satisfied with how far I got into my Flash game. Here is the version I'm settling on, if anyone is curious: http://chimeer.deviantart.com/art/Shoot-the-Moon-145352303
I'm also making progress with my Cocoa iPod game, but for every 5 steps forward I take I run into an impasse and there are no straight answers out there. Sure, you can find a few tutorials that might point you in the right direction. Each of them is long and takes careful reading and going through the steps at the same time, and it's not easy to spot what the answer to my question would be at a glance. I was hoping to find the one missing link I need to finish my program in a half hour of search plus 1 hour of reading, but it looks like I might need a lot more.
I find it a lot easier to find good documentation about Flash than about Xcode. Of course, Flash being more popular and a simpler environment to some extent explains this.
The last thing I might do with my Xcode game is port it to Visual Studio, maybe the XNA version. But that won't happen in time to show it in my class, I'm afraid.
Each of these things I've been trying to learn could probably take a whole semester just by itself to master properly. Maybe I should rethink my goals better the next time - if there is a next time, that is.
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